if only

Seandainya waktu bisa diputar ulang....

Seandainya kita ngga pernah ketemu...

Seandainya kita ngga pernah kenal...

Seandainya kita ngga pernah deket...

Seandainya kita ngga saling suka...

Seandainya early warning itu dipertimbangkan diawal...

Seandainya aku tau kalo ini akan bermasalah...

Seharusnya aku&kamu bisa mengendalikan hati waktu itu,

Sekarang mungkin kita tetep cuma jadi temen,

Sekarang mungkin kita ngga akan ngerasain sedih,

Sekarang mungkin kita bakal ngga kenapa-kenapa

Tapi, Allah dengan segala keajaibannya sudah kasih takdir kita buat ketemu, buat kenal, buat deket, buat menjalin hubungan, buat saling membahagiakan.

Ketika kenyataan pait dateng, 

Aku tetep bersyukur, aku pernah merasakan gimana rasa bahagianya punya partner yang menyenangkan, membahagiakan, aku bisa belajar banyak, aku bisa jadi lebih tau tentang agama.

Terimakasih Allah, 

Aku percaya ini bentuk sayangMu untuk aku.

where do we go?

2 bulan.


Memang sih baru sebentar,
Dan masih banyak ujian-ujian didepan sana yang bakal kita hadapi.

Jujur aku takut.

Takut kalo kenyataan ngga sesuai harapan.

Aku bahagia punya kamu, aku selalu bersyukur punya kamu, ngga ada 1 haripun yang aku lewatin tanpa ngedoain kamu&kita.

Ada pertanyaan yang selalu mengganjal dihati.
Kalo hubungan kita ngga direstuin, trus kita gimana?
Kita harus apa? Kita bisa apa?

Cuma bisa berdoa mudah-mudahan kenyataan sesuai harapan. Aamiin.

Aku ngga akan menggenggam terlalu erat, juga ngga akan melepaskan terlalu mudah.

Apapun nanti yang terjadi, Allah pasti punya maksud baik.
Kita pasti bahagia, harus bahagia :') (insha Allah)

Love you.

Susu Jahe

Alhamdulillah....

Terimakasih Allah Maha Baik, sudah Kau hadirkan Fakhri buat aku..

Dear Fakhri,

Kamu pasti ngga pernah tau persis apa alasanku terima kamu,, banyak hal yang aku rasa kamu adalah Right Man, Sayang.

Laki-laki yang Insha Allah menjaga 5 waktunya, sosok orang yang pinter  < tau sendiri aku suka orang yang pinter  >, “tong sampah” yang baik hihihi... 

Bisa jadi pendengar ketika aku cuma butuh didengar, bisa kasih saran/solusi yang aku bisa terima itu, bisa jadi guru tanpa bikin aku merasa digurui, bisa jadi partner “gila”, jadi partner nyinyir, jadi partner of everything

Sama kamu, aku bisa jadi diri sendiri... aku bisa ngomong apapun, aku bisa do something stupid, aku ngga perlu sok-sokan jadi perempuan yang manis hehe... and I thank you for that.

Kesayanganku, kita harus bisa jaga hati, jaga pikiran dan saling memperbaiki diri yah :)

Bismillahirohmanirohim,

Ya Allah, ridhoilah hubungan kami berdua, lancarkan dan mudahkanlah jalan kami berdua.

Yakinkan dan mantabkan hati kami berdua,

Yakinkan dan mantabkanlah hati orang tua kami,

Ijinkan& wujudkanlah niatan kami berdua untuk menyempurnakan ibadah dengan menikah.

Aamiin Allahuma Aamiin

Love You Fakhri

effortlessly

I only have two words for you: "I'm Done".

After everything I've done for you, every chance that I gave you, and yet you still break my heart. But it's over.

Finally I've realized, I don't deserve this and honestly you don't deserve me.
Hmm... I still love you, and probably will for a long time.

But I can't stay here anymore. It hurts too much, I guess this is "moving on".

I guess I'm tired of being the last on your mind.

I should have known from the start you'd go and break my heart.

You took my love and threw it away as if it were nothing.

To me, you're everything, but to you, I'm just another. Mean time girl.

You hurt me more than I deserve. How can you be so cruel.
I love you more than you deserve, Why am I such a fool?

Little did I know you were just another dead end road, made with pretty lies, and broken dreams.

Now I believe it when people say, "love is blind" coz I must have been blind to love a person like you.

It finally hit me that you didn't care when you walked away and never looked back. Maybe if I had just looked away that first night you came towards me, everything would be different and my heart wouldn't  be breaking right now.

I wanna do exactly what you did to me, lean you on, make you fall for me, than just let you go....effortlessly!


Suddenly, I'm hating myself for everything I've ever felt for you.
Sometimes I wish I could go back and erase the day I met you,,, but then I will never regret loving you, only believing you love me too.

I made mistake, thinking you were my world, you won't get away with this.
You messed with the wrong girl.

Slandering my name just for your own gain.

Dream on honey!! I'm gonna make you feel my pain.


Thank you for ripping my heart out, stomping on it and breaking it half. Now I know how much you care.

Watching you walk out of my life doesn't make me bitter about love but rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how great it will be when the right on comes along.

There is no medication for this illness. No known cure other than "Time".

Maybe someday i'll get back my heart, maybe someday I'll get back my pride, maybe somewhere down the road, I'll forget to remember you.
One day you will seek love and be sorry for that... you threw mine away.
And oneday you'll realize, you could have been with me.

I hope someday you'll realize what a fool you were to let someone like me, slip from your grip and that you'll see that the one you've been looking for was the one who set you free.

One day I will be able to look you in the eye without feeling the pain you've caused.

One day I will be able to stand next to you without wanting to hold your hand.

One day I will get over you.


hey girl.. don't cry, don't be sad
cheer up:)
God will always give us the best ;)